跟著貓腳印走。

( 鬼束千尋 - 惑星之森  )
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I am tired.
So tired.


And then,
I'm tired of everything.

I'm tired of smile.
I'm tired of cry.
I'm tired of excuse.
I'm tired of you.
I'm tired of myself.
I'm tired of somewhere inside always empty.
I'm tired of breath.


But I'm still trying.


Try to smile.
Try to cry.
Try to believe all the excuse.
Try to get close to you.
Try to get close to myself.
Try to fill the empty.
Try to breath.


I realize that I want nothing.

NOTHING.

I don't want to live.
But even, I don't really want to die.
I just float between them like a small bubble.


There's something wrong.
Maybe there's just nothing right.


This earth is so big and I'm so tiny.
But I still can't find even a samll hole to place myself in.
I still can't find a small shadow to hide.
Don't tell me that I'm special.
Don't tell me that everyone is special.
I AM NOT GOING TO BELIVEVE THAT ANYMORE.


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美麗的宮廷黃燈光，源源不絕推送而來的鋼琴聲。

日帆朵翻箱倒櫃地摸索眼睛鼻子嘴巴耳朵，連頭髮間的隙縫也找了。
她蒼白著嘴唇，露出慌得要哭出來的神情告訴我，
「...找不到，為什麼對所有事情的感動都不見了？」